Special Dedication

Hey thr earthlings ! I know its has been ages since I've blogged . Well , life's been harsh but there's still happy moments behind it . Those of you who've been keeping up with me on MSN , PLURK and FB will know :P

Now , you people might be wondering why do I have a suddenly urge to blog ? Well , I'd like to dedicate this post specially for my one and only Sec 1 junior , Huang Jiaqi .

Specially for dedicated to my one and only Huang Jiaqi . :D Of course , the rest of the section is welcomed to read this , too . I credit all of you , okaaay . XD

I know it has been hard on you. You initially started off with the accompaniment of Louis. You two could work together . I was glad to see how you two were able to communicate and show the power of teamwork . Seeing you two grow as a better player was an honor , really .Things were fine you until Louis was 'promoted' to senior band , leaving you alone in the Junior Band in the section . You were on your own . I understand how it feels to be thr sitting on the chair , playing your part , just alone , individually . You may think its a bad thing . But speaking from my personally experience , to be thr as the only player in your section means that you've got to drive and push yourself harder and harder in order to do well and SHINE prominently for the best . Music has no perfection . Each time you play, it has got to be better than the previous time you played on your instrument . There has been many problems and conflicts within the section and you may be feeling very uncomfortable about it. I may be keeping quiet , but dont think I know nothing . For all you know , I know more than you do . I dont talk about individual problems during sectionals , etc because I believe in privacy . I've promised all of you that every little bit you guys voice out to me personally , would be kept private & confidential . I dont want unnecessary circumstances to affect the section's relationship . Never do I want to see a strained relationship amongst us .

I may look like Im unhappy most of the time but I hope you understand the rationale . However , its not all the tome that its the same person's fault or whatsoever . I believe in upgrading the section's performance at the same pace , target and time . Count yourself lucky , though . You've got 4 seniors by your side each time during practice . Thats four-to-one . Tell me , which other section have such privilege ? In general , all section its one-to-one or two-to-one . Well , I dont deny that I spent most of the time only Shi Min and I are the only ones guiding you . However , I always think that I dont spend much time on each of you . During sectionals , I've got 4 of you . its really tough on my part to give individual attention , thus I always do section-based stuffs . This is to ensure that no one is at the losing end . I cant be biased . I treat every single one of you equally . I'm aware that Im very demanding most of time , I dont deny that . Of course y'all hope for jokes and laughter all the time , but it wont do any good for the section ,you see .There are times when I can joke , there are times when I've got to be serious . I hope I get the fullest understanding .

Jiaqi , now that you're sitting for the test in 5 days' time , facing 20-odd people in the AVA . The Promotion Test is in 5 days' time , I hope you feel the sense of urgency and doing little 'homework' for preparation . I know I'm not by your side all the time but as I said , I'm willing to reply texts and pick up calls just for my beloved euph players . (: "To be up thr for the best , it takes millions of effort . But to be down thr being the worst , it takes just that slightest bit ." Remember this saying . Its a great theory . You've taken many months to prepare for this test , which probably would only take 10 to 15-odd minutes . Treasure the moment and give off your best ! Negligence will only throw it into the drain , and hope to be in Senior Band is thrashed . Its your choice . I can help just a little . the majority efforts still depends on your willingness . Jy , junior ! Euph is behind you , including the graduation senior and alumni ! :D Do us proud , okaaay . Cheers !

PS . Visit band blog to see details for test . Though its for juniors , I want my good seniors to know them VERY well , too ! :D Will test you guys randomly . :P

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Hello , world !

So , last Friday dated 16072010 was PHiesta . Here it begins .

Left class at 0935 and make my way to band room . Run errands like mad .

Scores from library , section's stuffs and making sure SLs check that their section have their files with them .

Heavy bag ): - foundation books + tuners + original scores for Rakes of Mallow and The Wearing of The Green .

Aftermath , we report at foyer and waited for the bus .

I was the bus I/C for brasses' bus . Doing headcount + report strength + get bus driver's no . Awesome roller coaster ride while counting . LOL .

It was 45 min-odd journey . Reached YST .

Headed to dressing room and put down our stuffs .

Rushed down to grabbed our instrument for the first dry-run that day .

It went quite smoothly . It was than followed by lunch . ;D

After lunch , changed into full uniform .
While waiting for full-dress rehearsal in the dressing room , Isabel and I feel faint .

The room seems very stuffy and our heads were spinning like nobody's business ? We were in our own world , you know .

In the end , Bel and I went out for fresh air . We feel slightly better after that .

Thanks to CLOUD MAMA , Wei Ru , Eileen and everyone who helped us . (:

After that , went into the hall to watch a few items before ours .

Part 2 of rehearsal - BAND .

We did fine except the movements . We were debriefed and all the other PAGs were released except us .

For the sake of practicing movements . Tiring and ppl were growling . In the end , its for our own good .

We wouldn't want to embarrass ourselves right ? (:

Dinner-ed . Joey and Bryan pressure me by keeping a close eye on me to make sure that I finished my food ! Wa siao , I eat until bloated los . Eat slightly more than one-quarter full ler . Make me eat the whole thing . Took quite long but I still finished it .

Skipskipskip .

Went down to backstage at around 8-plus or 9, which was during the interval .

End of interval = Start of playing .

ABBA GOLD with Dance Society + WHOLE NEW WORLD with Choir + MARCH APRIL MAY + THE WEARING OF THE GREEN + RAKES OF MALLOW + YOU CAN'T HURRY LOVE + OMENS OF LOVE (Finale) + SCHOOL SONG (Closure) .

Packed up . Accounted for section's stuffs , etc . Down to bus pick-up point . Board the third-last bus . Nap-ed during the journey . Reached school .

Saw Wen , Xueqi , Amanda , Jerron and Abel . Waited with them for Yun , Bel , Wei Ru and Bryan .

Bel and Wei Ru left while the rest of us went for supper at RP's McD . Was quite dead thr .

Home-d , turn in . (:

What's up for this week ?

Monday - Band aft school . Religious class aft band . (have been missing three consecutive lesson)

Tuesday - UNSW English competition aft early dismissal .

Wednesday - Band prac , not going tuition .

Thurday - SIBF + Adam Khoo's Workshop Day 1 + SIBF Result :S

Friday - Adam Khoo's Workshop Day 2

Jyeaa , a hectic week ahead . Dont expect me to update frequently nowadays .

I'm stressed .

I'm down .

I'm speechless .

I feel useless .

I'm lost .

Will I ever find the light that I've been searching for in this dark tunnel ?

Will I ever be able to make a breakthrough ?

Will things that didn't kill me actually make me stronger ?

Will there be hope at any time ?

Will I still stand a chance to achieve my aim ?

Will I even be aspired at this point of time ?

Did I failed ? Yes .

Did I fall ? Yes .
Did I lose ? Yes .

Hope ? No .

Success ? No .

Win ? No .

Tell me , what's the point of staying in here when I've failed BIG TIME ? ):

It'll be a short and sweet post for now . Currently at home with sis . We're nervously , eagerly waiting for news from daddy , who's together with mummy now in the labor ward at KKH . We're praying hard for mummy and baby sister that they'll be safe in there . Ohh myy , cant wait to see her . She'll be the new edition in the family . It'll be cool . Haahs , younger sis now will be known as elder sis . Yes , sis ... You've got to grow . No more "ADEQ" or "MEI-MEI" now . Its either "KAKAK" or "JIE-JIE" . Now , you'll know how is it like to be an elder sibling , which I've been experiencing for the past 10 years with you .

So jyeah . I would like to thank my entire family , who are accompanying with sis and I at home now and dearest besties - EILEEN , RUI YUN , WEI RU and ISABEL for their care , concern and support .

Upon receiving news , most likely will be heading down to KKH tomorrow . I hope we're able to see baby sister real soon . I'M EGGCITED yet SCARED . (: / ):

THANK FOR THE MEMORIES , DEAREST BOYF !

10 Months , and still counting ;D

Spent time together today despite being lethargic.

Boyf had day camp from 7-9 June ,

while I had stay-in camp from 7-9 June .

Best moments to signify 10 months .

Our goal - TO LAST !

Next upcoming event - 6 more days to BOYF's bday .

"So what are you getting me for my bday ? Or are you not getting anything ?" asked BOYF .

And my answer to you is , "Its for me to know , for you to find out."

Band camp , Im still not gonna talk about for now cos it'll take very long . Overall , its awesome but of course there are things to be improved . So jyeah , look forward to a better one in Dec , in preparation for SYF Central Judging for Concert Bands .

36 DAYS TO AESTHETIC NIGHTS

42 DAYS TO SIBF

Hey thr , people ! Miss me much ? Lol . Currently in school for band camp and its the last day , today . Break camp at 1530 later on . We were here since Monday . Hmm , many might be wondering how I manage to post , right ? Actually , I'm using Rence's laptop now . Rence , who initially was wide awake with me is now taking her nap before assemble later on for breakfast at 0715 . We'll be heading to Jalan Kayu later . Woohoo !
It was just 20 minutes ago since I had shower so as to keep myself awake just before day . I won't fall into sleep at this time or else I wont be able to wake up on time . Water was effing cold but probably quite sufficient enough to wake me up for now . I'll make sure I'll get something so that I wont fall asleep during full band later .
I cant wait to get home now cos I really need my sleep . I've not been getting sufficient sleep for three consecutive days already . And jyeah , I need to regain energy loss and recover those dark rings around my eyes . Opps , I bet boyf gonna be mad if he reads this mayns . Not getting enough sleep ?! Haih , I'm sorry but what to do right ? Lol .
And oh , talking about boyf ... He's been asking me if I'm able to go out tmrw in celebration of our 10th monthsary . Hmm , I sincerely apologised cos I really cant provide you the answer now , dearest . I hope I can make it but it still depends on how long I plan to sleep in tmrw . Hee . We'll see how , okay ?
That's all for now . I shall post about our camp when I'm back home alright . Shant spend too much time here cos it's time for me to wake my roomamates up , being the facils and room I/C.
I miss everyone at home and boyf very much ):

I'll be back , okay ! Soooooonnnnnn !

Time check : 0608 hrs . (:
Bubye , peepos !

For a moment , I feel at lost . I was so upset that I felt it was the end . I swear . I almost gave up but both Rence and Joey gave me hope and I told myself that it was just part and parcel of life .

Thank you Joey and Rence for hearing me out ! ;D Maybe it's the lack of experience that caused me to be in this state . However , I'm lucky to have mentors like you two to guide me along even when you two have left the band . I'm glad I still have people to cheer me up and give advices . Many things happened but its all for one aim - TO BE THE BEST !

TO MY ONE AND ONLY EUPHONIUM SECTION ;

I believe that all of you are aware that we don't have much time left to SIBF and AESTHETIC NIGHT . After today's performance during full band , I realized I've made a huge mistake . I've neglected many things and did not think ahead . That's something I got to improve on and work on it . Technically , I know all of you are working hard and putting extra effort to be a better player . However , don't take things for granted . Be very focus during each and every sectionals/full band/rehearsal/etc . I want to see all of you on stage , together with me for both SIBF and Aesthtic Night . Being able to play with the entire section on stage is the best thing in my music-making endeavors . That's my all-time satisfaction in serving the band as a SL and HL . Thus , I may be a little more strict and demanding for the next few practices and I hope all of you understand the reason behind it . No pain no gain , right ? We suffer now , survive later okay ? Lastly , do give me your fullest cooperation during the 3D2N CAMP next week so that improve on the 3 pieces , most IMPORTANTLY . Can we do it ? YES , we can ! Let's work together and see the fruit of labor thereafter okay ?

Yes , I'm angry .

But I've put that aside and be upset instead .

I'm upset because I'm disappointed with myself .

I've failed big time .

I know I can't leave it that way .

I made it a wake-up call to myself .

It's extra work for me but I don't see it as a chore .

I'm doing it for the section and the band .

I hope we can tackle this problem by end of camp .

Yes, I'm putting on high hopes on all of you .

I've got high expectations from each of you .

LAST WORDS BEFORE I CLOSE OFF ;

TOGETHER , WE'LL BE ASPIRED TO BE GREAT .

TOGETHER , WE'LL AIM TO BE THE TOP .

TOGETHER , WE'LL ACHIEVE OUR MOST DESERVING SUCCESS .

42 DAYS TO AESTHETIC NIGHT .

48 DAYS TO SIBF .

Heeeyloooo WORLD ! XD

Jyeah , its been 3 weeks since I posted . Im sorry , little diary . I hope you understand that I didnt neglect you on purpose . ): I was busy mugging/studying/revising for MYE . I really want to do well and pass with flying colors .

MYE SEASON !

Language (ENG/MT) papers were manageable . As usual , Im always screwed for MT's compre . However , I tried my best . Combined humanities , Im disappointed with myself due to bad time management . Urgh , whats wrong with me ? Ive got my facts well but hating myself now cos I didnt organized my time well . Utterly frustrated . Combined science , real bad . My all time weakness is APPLICATION questions . Ive memorized the concepts but dont know how to apply to the ques ! How FANTASTIC is that ? Tsk . Triple math papers ! POA - I wont score well for Section A , I guess . Section B , Ive got high hopes . Hee . Amath - Im seeing hope . Ive been failing ALL tests and of course I need to do really well this time so that I wont see red marking in my report book . Emath - Ive officially flunk it I guess . I admit that Ive neglected it much and Paper 1 was tough . Haih . Basically , this is all .

POST-MYE SEASON !

Got most papers back . Obviously , some were satisfying but can be better whereas others were extremely DISAPPOINTING . Urghhhhhhhhh ! But well , as what mummy and daddy always say , "Failure is the wake up call for me to work harder or rather , putting in extra effort to do better ." And yes , Im going to revise the semester's worth of work during the coming hols . Thats the FIRST agenda on my to-do-list. Of course , I do have time to spend time with beloved family and relatives , dearest boyf , lovely friends and my wonderful besties . ;D Wait up , people !

BACK TO CCA !

PHSB ; Music , our PASSION always . Back to CCA . Gawd , I miss band prac so much . Had a good start as soon as prac resumes . Listening assignments to do , theory test coming up , audition for SIBF , rehearsals for Aesthetic Night , lots more . My dear juniors , I hope the 12 pages text that Ive sent you last night serves a good encouragement and enhance a sheer determination for us to emerge as the BEST section in time to come , before I leave . Im not doing this just for us , but for the band and Mr Tang . We must make PHSB a better and successful band in the shortest time . With that , teamwork is the key . Its very enlightening to see each of you is supportive of this music-making endeavours and being well intergrated with our own fellow musicians . I hope this wont end even after you've graduated . You should continue to be committed in your passion for music and strive for greater heights in the near future ! Show me that spirit , alright ? ;D Im putting high hope on all of you ! Dont thrash it okay . Im always here if you need help even if its to the extend of giving you extra sectionals or one-to-one. Always clarify your doubts as soon as possible. Dont wait till the last minute . Just ring me up . Im 24/7 contactable through my mobile JUST for you all . Dont feel free to get me , alright . Love you all <3

Side-track ;

DAVID CHILDS ROCKS !

He's my inspiration cos he's awesome !

I look up to him (:

PS. He's a world renowned EUPHONIUM soloist !

Next up ; PTM !

Ohh myy , I dont want my report book back ! Im afraid to disappoint my parents . ): Im sorry , mum and dad .

Welcoming an edition to the family !

Its approximately less that two months before (NURIL) DIA INSYIRAH is coming to the world ! (: Yes , my baby sister is coming to the world in JULY ! And jyeah , cant wait .

Thats all for now . Bye , world .

Love you , dearest <3

Missing you alot now .

The past , present and future .

Time flies . It was a year ago when Yi Jie and Rence stand down on 18th April 2009 .

And now , its Joey's turn - 30th April 2010 . Im glad that Joey loves the gifts that we've prepared for her . They may not be great but its the thoughts that counts .

The ice-cream cake , the mini eupho , the stuffed toy , everything - were just a sign of appreciation and we would like to thank you for your utmost support . We may not be perfect and all the time but I hope you didnt leave us with regrets . We hope that night's performance would stay in your mind forever . We're looking forward to your continuous commitment in helping the band and section after you've graduate ! With that , I would like to appeal to the rest of you to give me your full cooperation and emerge as the best section under my guidance in time to come . Thats what all our seniors - Rence , Yi Jie and Joey are looking forward too . AND AND AND , thats the first and the last promised Ive made to Joey ! Dont disappoint me and all of them okay ! Lastly , sheer determination and perseverance is the key to do well in everything . Never give up okay ? Lets all work together towards that goal aites ? EUPHONIUM SECTION ROCKS !

Love you all ! <3

Im impressed and touched by the spirit of PHSB. Audiences made it a point to attend our band's concert to show their support in our music-making endeavours!
So glad to see us well integrated with our own fellow musicians, and even took effort to take care of one one another in times of need . We all have come a long way in antagonizing Mr Tang and torturing him every band practice but through those sessions, Im sure he actually enjoyed the time with us and a close bond is formed! Let us all thank Mr Tang for a job well done ! ;D We may not be able to stand where we are now . Not forgetting , the contributions made by Mr Daniel Beng , Ms Lee Shu Pei and Ms Wong Wei Nee for going thru the thick and thins with us in making this special night a huge success . Lastly , appreciate the attendance of our audiences , the efforts by our dearest Sec 4s seniors and ourselves for blasting our music and made the concert and enjoyable one . On this note , may we wish our graduating seniors all the best on their upcoming major exams ! FAREWELL AND BEST WISHES , seniors !
May PHSB strive for newer heights in the near future!

ONE DOWN , TWO TO GO !

- AESTHETICS NIGHT @ YONG SIEW TOH CONSERVATORY HALL
- SIBF @ THE REPUBLIC CULTURAL CENTRE , CONCERT HALL

LET US ALL WORK TOWARDS THESE TWO EVENTS AND BRING PRIDE TO PHSB

Friday , 30th April |

Its approximately 23 hours away from the graduation concert .

Moments of tears is approaching real soon . IM NOT PREPARED .

Im scared , nervous and worried . I SWEAR I WONT BE ABLE TO SLEEP TONIGHT .

Despite the fact that Im aware of the MT Papers tmrw , Im more tensed about the concert and not the paper , seriously .

You may think its unreasonable , but Im sure many of my fellow PHSB members agree with me . Especially the Sec 3s . ):

5 STATIC STATIONS YESTERDAY .

Not too bad . I completed everything and didnt fail anything .

2.4KM RUN TODAY .

Totally drain me out .

Thanks to Doreen , Jermaine , Rui Yun , Rui Wen , Isabel , Xue Qi , Nicole , Amanda , Wei Ru , who helped me out after that . I was dead beat and feel faint . Dread ):

Had dinner at McD after that . Trembled , shivered the whole walk thr . Scared myself . Haih .

I need hugs and kisses from dearest boyf ):

Jyeah , plan changed .

Didnt meet today .):

MUSCLES ACHING . SPINE HURTS BADLY .

I'M IN NO CONDITION TO DO HWK NOW .

Pei Hwa Symphonic Band Konzert de Amicitia 2010 !

Details are as follows:

Date/Day : 30th april 2010, Friday

Venue: School Hall (Air-conditioned)

Time: 7.30pm - 9pm

YOUR ATTENDANCE WOULD BE APPRECIATED.

PLEASE ATTEND, SUPPORT ME OR TH BAND OR WHAT.

i would be grateful if i see familiar faces coming up to me after th concert on th day :D

To whom it may concern ;

If you think Im depending on you and the rest , you are wrong .

Right from the start , Im not even supposed befriending you and the rest cos you left a bad impression on my parents one fine day . I was reprimanded because of you that fine evening , which was supposed to be a enjoyable family reunion . Its just because of you that it affected the rest . Yes , I was restricted . I didn't tell you cos I don't wish to hurt your feelings . I don't mind losing but I feel guilty when I hurt someone . Now that Ive had enough of those drama plays , I'll be glad to leave . If you think Im self-centred , selfish or anything I don't care . What you and your friends think about me is none of my concern .

I don't care if my deeds are not appreciated . All I want is break-free from you and the rest cos I believe that if parents is totally against something , there's bound to be unwanted circumstances . Thus , dont be surprised if I dont approach any of you anymore .

Im hurt .

I dont care if you didn't notice .

I dont care if you're angry with me cos I know Im wrong .

I dont hold grudge on you , but idk about you .

I thrash it all out with you , its not your fault .

I hope you understand .

If this make you change , I hope its for the better .

Dont bother talking to me cos I wont change my mind .

Get that trust back in you and lead your own life that you're used to .

Dont change for people , but your future .

The past will be the past , I will move on .

Im down .

Im dumbfounded .

Im speechless .
Im confused .

Im frustrated .

Im angry .

I cried twice today .

I know I had to .

But I just dont know how .

I know Im in .

But Im not sure what stops me .

I know I shouldnt be whr I am .

But its because I failed .

I know throwing tantrum isnt a good way .

But I was really flare up .

I know Im at the losing end .

But I dont need a back up .

[insertnamehere]

Ive hinted you many time but it seems that you took no notice of it .

Idk if you were pretending or you dont know for real .

Whatever it is , idc . I'll get this straight and clear it up with you .

I'll thrashed everything tonight with you . I hope you will RESPECT my decision .

[INSERTNAMEHERE]

I was being frank and you knew that . Whats the point of "transiting" when Im done with one ? So jyeah , Im avoiding and Im in a bad state right now . Furthermore , we are no longer supported by many but instead challenged . Thus , I promise you that you have to expect the unexpected .

No one starts a war - or rather ,

no one in his sense ought to do so - without first ,

being clear in his mind what he intends to achieve by that war

And how he intends to conduct it .

To [INSERTNAMEHERE]

Whats the fucking problem with you , mayns ? Why are you spreading rumors around and yet still dare to tell me , him and her three effing different stories to act that you're innocent . Well , you think you're smart ? Im afraid you're not . On thursday , I fucking tell you everything and I thought I've clarified your doubts . It has proven me wrong now . Why do you have to do this ? If any of us has offended you in any way , just damn bloody tell us straight in the face alright ? Your initially thought , I've clearly told you everything and I even have evidence that I showed you . What else do you want , bitch ?

Happy , excited yet nervous .

Week 6 - MYE ! Mugging season . ;D

16 April - Speech Day .

30 April - PHSB Graduation Concert ): [School Hall]

1 June - S'pore Mathematics Olympiad

7-9 June - Band Camp

17 June - 3E3 Service Learning

16 July - Aesthetics Night [Yong Siew Toh Conservatory Hall]

22/23/25 July - SIBF [March April May , The Wearing of the Green & Rakes of Mellow]

Some events that Im looking forward too this year . I hope it'll be worth waiting . ;D

7 APRIL ;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YAN TONG !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FARUQ !

Birthday was a blast yet embarassing . However , Im very touched by the suprised party organised by best friend , isabel , xue qi , amanda and cai yun . I appreciate your thoughtfulness . Makes me wanna stay with you girls pretty much till the end of the world ! ;D

School .

I think by the end of the day , the entire school can assure that it was MY birthday lorhs ! Different group of people sang birthday songs for me and make it like it was a competition in which they are judged by how loud they sing . Cos they practically sang louder and louder after each group of people . Well , the BAND WON ! I mean , they made the entire canteen focused at us . SO EMBARASSING ! Anw , thanks to everyone .

Band .

Performed for assembly , both lower and upper sec . Jyeah , its the first time this year that Im glued to my euphonium the entire week . Im lovin' it ! <3>

Monday - CCA

Tuesday - Assembly & Rehearsal

Wednesday - Assembly

Thursday - CCA

Friday - CCA

FUN FUN FUN ! I love the music that we make , the culture that we have , the passion for music we practices , the commitment and determination that we pour out . If I were to list out everything , the post will never end . So jyeah .

Joey [BM cum SL] ,

Your text was saddening but I promise you that I wont let you down . The thought of you stepping down in weeks' time , teared my heart . Nonetheless , I wrote promises in my reply . Rest assured , I will never give up hope . I will follow you footsteps , if not it can only be better . ;D

HOME .

Reached home at 8-ish , after tuition . And I got greatest shock of my life . I became speechless to see my dear besties in my room , with 1 big & 5 small candles on a birthday cake . My heart dropped onto the ground cos I didnt expect anything like that to happen . Couldnt bring myself to cut the cake cos Im too touched . You girls are very thoughful . I cant describe everything in detail here cos it'll only bring tears . So jyeah , I appreciate your efforts people .

3E3'10

[THE NUTTY FAMILY]

2E6'09

[E6-ERS !]

PHSB & CCB

[IT'S MY LIFE]

FAMILY

[MY BELOVED ONES]

RUI YUN & ISABEL

[BESTIES]

EILEEN & WEI RU

[FTW!]

CHARLES , KUO CHYE & OWEN

[PRI SCH BEST MATES!]

ALYSSA , AMIRA & JELEEN

[MET THEM WHEN I WAS 12 , LEFT THEM WHEN I WAS 13 . BUT WE'RE STILL IN CONTACT! YOU GIRLS ROCKS <3]

BOYF

[THE ONE WHO INITIATED THE STEAD. ILY , DEAREST <3]

And everyone who wished me today ! Thanks , guys ! ;D

Those who made my special a an enjoyable one .

Hello , readers . Im back for updating .

Things happened and Im emotionally unstable right now . Though I dont show it but it hurts deep in the heart .

School .

Im lucky to have cheerful peers around me .

They make my day , which is why I told myself not to spoil the day .

I love them to the max . Giving that black face isnt on my agenda when I step into the class . In fact , I dont have the heart too . Cos one minute of sadness means that Ive wasted one minute of happiness . So jyeah , I try to avoid that as far as possible in school .

Credits to ;

Patricia , Amanda , Annabel , Shannie , Adilah , Shawn , FGL [!] , Guo Yang & Ren Wei .

Band .

Im super duper frustrated with her , mayns . Always not heeding to advice and think she's good , huh ?! Seriously , there is a need to carry out punishment on her . Gonna make her run , I swear . I've got no choice . Its not that I want to torture her but its for her own good . If she does not adhere to this , then whats the point right ? Haih .

On the other hand , I appreciate that Farid , Shi Min and Louis are trying their best to improve and takes every chance to practice hard . Now , you guys have proven to me that you're able to be an independent players . All I ask for is , determination and perseverance . You know that there's a whole lot of events coming up . Thus , please make an effort to take greater heights and succeed . Aim high , okay . ;D

Boyf .

My reaction was very harsh on you , I bet . I apologise . I was speechless . I felt like I was stabbed in the heart . Well , it was unwelcomed though . Im pretty disturbed by other stuffs but I kept it inside so as not to spoil the day . How am I when you see me , is how I was during school and tuition . I hate to get other people involved in personal/family matters . However , it was unfortunate that I could not take it anymore and find fault with you instead . Its my fault . Dearest , please forgive me . I regretted . Being as hot-headed as I am , its hard for me to control . After I left , the bus journey back home was unpleasant . I need some space for myself now . Im sorry but Ive got to turn you down , together with my classmates . Im being fair here . I dont leave you and go to my peers . Ive told you that Im not in the mood to go out with anyone for the moment . I mean my words .

Bryan .

I hope you've clarified your doubts . Stop your guilty-conscious . I've explained everything to you just now and I hope you understand . We've sort it out and clear the misinterpretation . Thus , I look forward to a better one .

Wei Ru .

Chilax . Dont get so tensed up by everything . I feel your pain . Im here when you need me , aites ? Love you .

Eileen Per .

Its up to you to decide . Im here to support you . Ive known you well enough . Neither do I propose or oppose . Your life , your choice , your say . Loved . ;D

6 more days .

9 more day .

The thought of it hurts .

I regretted .

Im hoping for a twist in this .

I dont want to see us suffering under him .

I still want the same tradition .

Many may not understand .

But few of us knows the facts right .

Unsure if we're able to progress under him .

I want this movie to end .

A new one to start .

Hoping for a twist of fate .

Term break , bye bye . New term , hey hey .

Saturday - Skipped tuition . Stayed home . Did assignments .

Sunday - Out for lunch . Home-d . Did assigments .

Monday - CCA . Dinner . Burned midnight oil .

Tuesday - Mugging .

Wednesday - Tuition . Home-d . Nap . Mugged .

Thursday - Hang out at Amira's place , together with Alyssa . Movie marathon . Small feast . Wii-ed . Left . Met boyf . Home-d .

Friday - CCA . Dinner . Met boyf . Home-d .

Saturday - Tuition . Lunch . Met boyf . Assigments .

Sunday - Last day of mugging . Completed everything . Now , I can set my mind off the brain-wrecking homeworks .

17 more days . ;D

A pretty brief summary of my term break .

Well , it may not be my type on blogging these days .

Fact is , I lost the enthusiasm to blog that often and detailed .

Sincere apologies to those who have religiously reading my blog . ):

CAMP CAMP CAMP !

Full of adventure , fun and laughter !

Sheerwood , challenge village , paintball , tree-climbing , waterfall hiking , nature walk @ taman negara , campfire , lights off , shower , everything !

All the precious moments will be locked in my mind for my entire life , I SWEAR !

I cant describe and tell all the WONDERFUL experiences in words now .

200 PICS are up in FB ! Do visit them to tell you how much fun we had during camp !

3E3'10 - the nutty family

thanks to peanut and cashew nut for making the camp a pretty organised one .

in addition to that , making the class even more bonded .

i love the campfire !

not forgetting , ms kanch and mr tiger who left their family back here , to be with us .

thanks to everyone , who made this camp a success !

10-12 March will be craved in my mind .

Short and sweet post for now for the sake of keeping it alive ;D

Common Test 1 down ! Results down !

Overall , good effort but can be better , I hope .

Failed AMath by 2 marks . That's a learning point for me .

For the rest , it's relatively fine . Just need more exposure to different types of application question for all subjects . Thats very important . I will pull up my socks during the coming term break .

On the brighter side, Im looking forward to the upcoming Sec 3 level camp next week !

10-12 March @ Tanjung Piai , JB , Msia .

The accommodation is awesome ! Better than expected .

The activities ; Paintballs , Jetty Jump , Obstacles Course , Tree-climbing , Flying Fox , many more !

OMG , cant wait . I bet it'll be the most memorable camp in my entire life ! Full of adventure . Yes , we gonna stink , swim in mud , everything . Im mentally prepared for the cos its a once in a lifetime opportunity . We're there to enjoy yet learn values . So jyeah .

I'll be back with more stuffs !

Camp camp camp !

Woohoo ~

Currently at Jln Mariamah , JB , Msia . (check out picas in FB!)
Yes , Im on a vacation at my aunt's place .
It was a last minute decision to follow my aunt and her family back here when they came to Spore on Sunday .
Im having so much fun here since the day I arrived . Despite the fact that I had to sacrifice few things after leaving , Im not regretting any part of this . Why did I make this sudden decision ?
I didnt tell any of my friends .
Uhm , Im quite stressed out and depressed with studies and everything . Therefore , I look things on the brighter side . I came here telling myself that by taking some time off town can is a form of relaxation . My aunt and uncle have been bringing me around , together with their children - Abg Sya , Kak Yan and Abg Hani . Going out with them is all about fun and laughter . I realised that life can always be more than just going by the book . With that , I told myself that whatever I "left" in Spore will just be there .
On the other hand , life here is so much peaceful and conducive . I do bring my homework along . Given the environment , I managed to complete all of them in one afternoon .
; AMath , EMath , English Essay , Social Studies skilled practice . It was only then that I realised I actually got a longer concentration span than I thought .

Currently blogging and listening to songs . Will be back in Spore by tonight . Was supposed to leave this morning but I overslept . I woke up when it was lunchtime and then my uncle checked the causeway line and said that the causeway jam like shit . Yes , its true . So wait till now . Anw , Ive got nothing to worry . Ive got all my homework done , packed my bag before I leave . So jyeah .
Furthermore , it'll be disastrous to be stuck in a jam in the hot sun . Haahs . ;D

To boyf ,
Im sorry that we are unable to spend our day together today which had been planned initially . Im not sure if Im able to make later on for Mr Wong's open house . I'll text you as soon as Im back in Spore .

To Zulhelmy ,
Ive read your text . I understand that you're sad but yet to know why . Must tell me later when I get back to okay .

To Syafiqah ,
I was unable to reply . I know I did tell you that I wasnt going anywhere during this long weekend . But as I said earlier on , it was a last minute decision . Im sorry for not informing you .

To Darius ,
I wont be able to turn up for the steamboat feast today . As much as I want to , but Im still here - Msia . Haahs ;D

To Shawn "BF" ,
You've been texting since I reach JB . I apologised for not replying you like usual . Well , its my fault that I didnt inform you despite being very clear that you'll text me and ask for clarifications . Im sorry , "BF" .

To Shannie ,
Im not sure what you wanted from me yesterday . But I assume that you're asking me out something . Scandie , miss me ah ? Second day of CNY and yet you're asking me out . Haahs , you should get what I mean right . Love , imyt & ilyt !

Till here dhen .
PS. Please disregard the organisation for this post cos I know it's quite messy . Im in a rush . Thus , I just type out whatever comes true my mind . I'll write a better post when Im back in Spore .
Toodles ;D

DEAREST , IMY !