Friday , 30th April |

Its approximately 23 hours away from the graduation concert .

Moments of tears is approaching real soon . IM NOT PREPARED .

Im scared , nervous and worried . I SWEAR I WONT BE ABLE TO SLEEP TONIGHT .

Despite the fact that Im aware of the MT Papers tmrw , Im more tensed about the concert and not the paper , seriously .

You may think its unreasonable , but Im sure many of my fellow PHSB members agree with me . Especially the Sec 3s . ):

5 STATIC STATIONS YESTERDAY .

Not too bad . I completed everything and didnt fail anything .

2.4KM RUN TODAY .

Totally drain me out .

Thanks to Doreen , Jermaine , Rui Yun , Rui Wen , Isabel , Xue Qi , Nicole , Amanda , Wei Ru , who helped me out after that . I was dead beat and feel faint . Dread ):

Had dinner at McD after that . Trembled , shivered the whole walk thr . Scared myself . Haih .

I need hugs and kisses from dearest boyf ):

Jyeah , plan changed .

Didnt meet today .):

MUSCLES ACHING . SPINE HURTS BADLY .

I'M IN NO CONDITION TO DO HWK NOW .

Pei Hwa Symphonic Band Konzert de Amicitia 2010 !

Details are as follows:

Date/Day : 30th april 2010, Friday

Venue: School Hall (Air-conditioned)

Time: 7.30pm - 9pm

YOUR ATTENDANCE WOULD BE APPRECIATED.

PLEASE ATTEND, SUPPORT ME OR TH BAND OR WHAT.

i would be grateful if i see familiar faces coming up to me after th concert on th day :D

To whom it may concern ;

If you think Im depending on you and the rest , you are wrong .

Right from the start , Im not even supposed befriending you and the rest cos you left a bad impression on my parents one fine day . I was reprimanded because of you that fine evening , which was supposed to be a enjoyable family reunion . Its just because of you that it affected the rest . Yes , I was restricted . I didn't tell you cos I don't wish to hurt your feelings . I don't mind losing but I feel guilty when I hurt someone . Now that Ive had enough of those drama plays , I'll be glad to leave . If you think Im self-centred , selfish or anything I don't care . What you and your friends think about me is none of my concern .

I don't care if my deeds are not appreciated . All I want is break-free from you and the rest cos I believe that if parents is totally against something , there's bound to be unwanted circumstances . Thus , dont be surprised if I dont approach any of you anymore .

Im hurt .

I dont care if you didn't notice .

I dont care if you're angry with me cos I know Im wrong .

I dont hold grudge on you , but idk about you .

I thrash it all out with you , its not your fault .

I hope you understand .

If this make you change , I hope its for the better .

Dont bother talking to me cos I wont change my mind .

Get that trust back in you and lead your own life that you're used to .

Dont change for people , but your future .

The past will be the past , I will move on .

Im down .

Im dumbfounded .

Im speechless .
Im confused .

Im frustrated .

Im angry .

I cried twice today .

I know I had to .

But I just dont know how .

I know Im in .

But Im not sure what stops me .

I know I shouldnt be whr I am .

But its because I failed .

I know throwing tantrum isnt a good way .

But I was really flare up .

I know Im at the losing end .

But I dont need a back up .

[insertnamehere]

Ive hinted you many time but it seems that you took no notice of it .

Idk if you were pretending or you dont know for real .

Whatever it is , idc . I'll get this straight and clear it up with you .

I'll thrashed everything tonight with you . I hope you will RESPECT my decision .

[INSERTNAMEHERE]

I was being frank and you knew that . Whats the point of "transiting" when Im done with one ? So jyeah , Im avoiding and Im in a bad state right now . Furthermore , we are no longer supported by many but instead challenged . Thus , I promise you that you have to expect the unexpected .

No one starts a war - or rather ,

no one in his sense ought to do so - without first ,

being clear in his mind what he intends to achieve by that war

And how he intends to conduct it .

To [INSERTNAMEHERE]

Whats the fucking problem with you , mayns ? Why are you spreading rumors around and yet still dare to tell me , him and her three effing different stories to act that you're innocent . Well , you think you're smart ? Im afraid you're not . On thursday , I fucking tell you everything and I thought I've clarified your doubts . It has proven me wrong now . Why do you have to do this ? If any of us has offended you in any way , just damn bloody tell us straight in the face alright ? Your initially thought , I've clearly told you everything and I even have evidence that I showed you . What else do you want , bitch ?

Happy , excited yet nervous .

Week 6 - MYE ! Mugging season . ;D

16 April - Speech Day .

30 April - PHSB Graduation Concert ): [School Hall]

1 June - S'pore Mathematics Olympiad

7-9 June - Band Camp

17 June - 3E3 Service Learning

16 July - Aesthetics Night [Yong Siew Toh Conservatory Hall]

22/23/25 July - SIBF [March April May , The Wearing of the Green & Rakes of Mellow]

Some events that Im looking forward too this year . I hope it'll be worth waiting . ;D

7 APRIL ;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YAN TONG !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FARUQ !

Birthday was a blast yet embarassing . However , Im very touched by the suprised party organised by best friend , isabel , xue qi , amanda and cai yun . I appreciate your thoughtfulness . Makes me wanna stay with you girls pretty much till the end of the world ! ;D

School .

I think by the end of the day , the entire school can assure that it was MY birthday lorhs ! Different group of people sang birthday songs for me and make it like it was a competition in which they are judged by how loud they sing . Cos they practically sang louder and louder after each group of people . Well , the BAND WON ! I mean , they made the entire canteen focused at us . SO EMBARASSING ! Anw , thanks to everyone .

Band .

Performed for assembly , both lower and upper sec . Jyeah , its the first time this year that Im glued to my euphonium the entire week . Im lovin' it ! <3>

Monday - CCA

Tuesday - Assembly & Rehearsal

Wednesday - Assembly

Thursday - CCA

Friday - CCA

FUN FUN FUN ! I love the music that we make , the culture that we have , the passion for music we practices , the commitment and determination that we pour out . If I were to list out everything , the post will never end . So jyeah .

Joey [BM cum SL] ,

Your text was saddening but I promise you that I wont let you down . The thought of you stepping down in weeks' time , teared my heart . Nonetheless , I wrote promises in my reply . Rest assured , I will never give up hope . I will follow you footsteps , if not it can only be better . ;D

HOME .

Reached home at 8-ish , after tuition . And I got greatest shock of my life . I became speechless to see my dear besties in my room , with 1 big & 5 small candles on a birthday cake . My heart dropped onto the ground cos I didnt expect anything like that to happen . Couldnt bring myself to cut the cake cos Im too touched . You girls are very thoughful . I cant describe everything in detail here cos it'll only bring tears . So jyeah , I appreciate your efforts people .

3E3'10

[THE NUTTY FAMILY]

2E6'09

[E6-ERS !]

PHSB & CCB

[IT'S MY LIFE]

FAMILY

[MY BELOVED ONES]

RUI YUN & ISABEL

[BESTIES]

EILEEN & WEI RU

[FTW!]

CHARLES , KUO CHYE & OWEN

[PRI SCH BEST MATES!]

ALYSSA , AMIRA & JELEEN

[MET THEM WHEN I WAS 12 , LEFT THEM WHEN I WAS 13 . BUT WE'RE STILL IN CONTACT! YOU GIRLS ROCKS <3]

BOYF

[THE ONE WHO INITIATED THE STEAD. ILY , DEAREST <3]

And everyone who wished me today ! Thanks , guys ! ;D

Those who made my special a an enjoyable one .

Hello , readers . Im back for updating .

Things happened and Im emotionally unstable right now . Though I dont show it but it hurts deep in the heart .

School .

Im lucky to have cheerful peers around me .

They make my day , which is why I told myself not to spoil the day .

I love them to the max . Giving that black face isnt on my agenda when I step into the class . In fact , I dont have the heart too . Cos one minute of sadness means that Ive wasted one minute of happiness . So jyeah , I try to avoid that as far as possible in school .

Credits to ;

Patricia , Amanda , Annabel , Shannie , Adilah , Shawn , FGL [!] , Guo Yang & Ren Wei .

Band .

Im super duper frustrated with her , mayns . Always not heeding to advice and think she's good , huh ?! Seriously , there is a need to carry out punishment on her . Gonna make her run , I swear . I've got no choice . Its not that I want to torture her but its for her own good . If she does not adhere to this , then whats the point right ? Haih .

On the other hand , I appreciate that Farid , Shi Min and Louis are trying their best to improve and takes every chance to practice hard . Now , you guys have proven to me that you're able to be an independent players . All I ask for is , determination and perseverance . You know that there's a whole lot of events coming up . Thus , please make an effort to take greater heights and succeed . Aim high , okay . ;D

Boyf .

My reaction was very harsh on you , I bet . I apologise . I was speechless . I felt like I was stabbed in the heart . Well , it was unwelcomed though . Im pretty disturbed by other stuffs but I kept it inside so as not to spoil the day . How am I when you see me , is how I was during school and tuition . I hate to get other people involved in personal/family matters . However , it was unfortunate that I could not take it anymore and find fault with you instead . Its my fault . Dearest , please forgive me . I regretted . Being as hot-headed as I am , its hard for me to control . After I left , the bus journey back home was unpleasant . I need some space for myself now . Im sorry but Ive got to turn you down , together with my classmates . Im being fair here . I dont leave you and go to my peers . Ive told you that Im not in the mood to go out with anyone for the moment . I mean my words .

Bryan .

I hope you've clarified your doubts . Stop your guilty-conscious . I've explained everything to you just now and I hope you understand . We've sort it out and clear the misinterpretation . Thus , I look forward to a better one .

Wei Ru .

Chilax . Dont get so tensed up by everything . I feel your pain . Im here when you need me , aites ? Love you .

Eileen Per .

Its up to you to decide . Im here to support you . Ive known you well enough . Neither do I propose or oppose . Your life , your choice , your say . Loved . ;D

6 more days .

9 more day .