Im depressed.

Am I too tolerant or am I too selfish?
Am I too soft-hearted or am I too harsh?
Am I too forgiving or am I too one-sided?
Do I deserve whats going right now or even more/less?
Do I have to bring upon others before myself or the other way round?
Do I have to make decision my life or decision that change others' life?
Should I let it all out or simply keep it deep in my heart?
Should I write it here or talk to someone?
Should I forget about it or simply a revenge?
Will it helps or it's just as good as doing nothing?
Will I have to be the one taking action or the culprit?
Will I gain the reward or regretting it next?

Someone, please text/cal me.
You're really needed at this point of time.